It's not a sight you often, if ever, see from a top-flight footballer. Keeping calm under pressure comes with the job description, but there's a sense it's what's expected from fans and team-mates. So when Everton striker Thierno Barry posted a video last month, external of him breaking down during a private training session, it sparked conversation around showing emotion in an industry where revealing any sort of vulnerability can be a risk.
BBC Newsbeat met the French footballer at the club's training ground to find out why he chose to show the raw moment - and how he's using it to drive forward. "I was really scared about posting that. "And I said: 'No, I just need to show myself'," says Barry of the video released on his YouTube channel last month.
"Last season I showed a version of me [that wasn't] me and [people] need to learn about me." In the video, the 23-year-old is seen getting frustrated and upset about his performance. He then leaves the private training session, where he begins to cry, as his team works to reassure him. The next day, Barry is seen reflecting on how it felt positive to let go.
"Sometimes it feels good to just lose it," he says to the camera. Barry reveals he sat on the video for three weeks before choosing to release it. "It's the first time I cried in front of my friends, they always see me as a strong [person]," he says.
"I'm happy that I can show that moment. They know I care about the club and I care about playing good on the pitch." A Premier League move from Villarreal for £27m at the age of 22 was always going to be a jump for the Lyon-born player - and fans expect a lot from new signings. Everton ended up re-posting the clip from his vlog on their own feed, external, with the caption "emotional resilience".
Comments streamed in underneath urging the player to keep his head up. He acknowledges the support he has received from fans and his club. "The people around me helped a lot because, like I said, I'm really hard with myself and the people with me try to help me to be more positive." And for Barry, any disapproval wouldn't reach the levels of his own inner-critic.
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